When youre broken, there is no going back to your old self. You have to pick up the pieces alone & stitch them back together w gold.The hardest thing for A N Y O N E to grasp regarding depression is that you say and do things that you wouldn't have ever normally done. Its not an excuse, but it is an ailment and a side effect most certainly. It sucks and it kind of "ruin" reltionships. Im not trying to view it as that, anyone who couldn't be there during the lowest point's in your life, DO NOT deserve to be there for the happiest moments.Im glad i have who i have, and have had. My crew of a few friends and my parent's never once gave up on me. Ill never be able to return that favor but i will forever be trying.Im lucky to have them as i try to develop who i am as i get through my depression. I dont remember who i was before addiction and depression hit, so its really hard to try to create someone who i dont know. So im not finding who i was because whoever that was made choices i am no longer going to make.Im creating a whole new me through this enlightening experience, the REAL me. I will still have dark times but i appreciate each and every one of you who have never given up on me.Thank you.I will not be letting you or myself down.