I failed once,
And I ended up with the gift of tears.
And scars that came with all the taunts,
That were showered upon me.
I failed twice,
And I ended up with the gift of dejection,
And numbness that accompanied it,
The tears were more this time. .
I failed again,
The third time,
This time came the acceptance,
That I'm not good enough,
And while taunts weren't many,
But that itself was the biggest taunt,
And tears weren't left any,
To wash away the scars.
I failed the fourth time,
And this time I smiled,
I could see the pattern,
I could see my scars taking shape,
Like a roadmap for me to walk upon,
I saw my tears were dried up,
So I could see clearly what laid ahead,
I found the gift of realisation,
That stars were only to be found,
When the sky was at its darkest.
And I failed once again,
The fifth time,
So I could laugh alongwith my destiny,
For I had learnt to understand,
How beautiful it is,
To be fearless.
So the sixth time,
Not at the failure,
But at the success that waited for me,
Beyond my tears and my fears,
And while I didn't know how far it was,
I could clearly see,
How far I had come,
So I stood upon the edge this time,
And I took the leap.
For I know,
There will be a seventh time one day,
And it won't define me anymore.
#aboutlastnight #selfmusing #sodiumlights